So this will be my last entry, though I will put another entry with the new link to my new journal.
That said, I'm not entirely sure I'll be using livejournal as my primary blog. I think I'm going to make it my personal blog, and am investigating using a few new platform/websites for what will end up being a very active public blog.
The main thing I'm considering is how customizable livejournal as, as I wish to integrate the public blog into an overall one-spot web presence, where I can share photos, explorative essays, poetry, book excerpts and reviews, and music mixes with the public.
This will be an exciting era of my life... I sincerely feel this upcoming year will be the best year of my life that I've ever enjoyed, and my intention as I go through it is to create a lifestyle that is beneficial to those who make compassion (metta) and insight (vipassana) a priority in their lives... which essentially is saying those who are prepared to receive the benefit I hope to offer, those who are attracted to the gifts I seek to offer.
And one primary theme of this new era of sharing my live with others will be my observations, experiences, and insights into how to make intimate relationships function as an expression of Joy and Love and Peace. This will definitely include intimate sexuality.
My sexual history is ridden with repressed celibacy and recovering from a number of sexual traumas. So healthy sexuality is something I'm very passionate about as an individual, but as I have made my way out to interact and talk with many others on an intimate level, I have found that the challenges I've gone through are really not as uncommon as I thought... and really, they aren't as uncommon as I wish they were. Our culture definitely breeds destructive attitudes and behaviors toward healthy sexuality. So this is definitely one of those instances where an individual passion of mine synchs up with one of the primary causes for a lot of suffering in our Western culture.
And finally I'm in a position to write from actual flesh-and-blood experience, not just from meditative observation and theoretic conjecture. It is one thing to know in my heart that I am an amazing lover, not just physically... but in every other possible way--it is something else entirely to know I am an amazing lover based on actual experience. And since I'm beginning an era where my choice to speak openly about such things will have the resonance of experiential knowledge to it, I sense I will be able to be very beneficial for individuals and couples who are also dealing with sexual disappointments (e.g. lack of passion, lack of energetic zing, dysfucntions, communication challenges, etc...)
And on a spiritual level, I'm going to switch from Zen/Mahayana Buddhism to Vajrayana Buddhism, or what Americans call Tantric Buddhism. I will still keep the practice of zazen and the path of Bodhisattva as primary facets of my spiritual practice. But instead of simply sitting and observing (zazen), I will start practice harmoniz tantric breathing for the purpose of sharing and exploring the various jhana, or samadhi, states of being. To put it in lay language, instead of seeking to experience and explore the enlightened states of mind as an individual, I will be seeking to explore and share those enlightened states with my sweetheart. And instead of merely choosing the path of Bodhisattva, which is a primary path within Mahayana Buddhism, I will now choose to activate the path of Bodhisattva through the use of Buddhist archetypes, which is what attracted me to the precepts and practices of:
The Five Dhyani Buddhas, which can be considered the five manifestations of Buddha (The Awakened One) used in a practice of purification/meditation. Each of the five Dhyani (Meditative/Purifying) Buddhas are archetypal tools a meditative spiritual devotee can use to purify the mind of various defilements.
(See following link for a chart of the characteristics of each of the five Dhyani Buddhas: Chart on Five Dhyani Buddhas.)
Vajrasattva Buddha, which is the culmination of one who masters the use of the five Dhyani Buddhas. Vajrasattva is the embodiment of the five Dhyani Buddhas, as well as their chief.
And on top of all that, Vajrasattva is also a type of Bodhisattva, in that one can choose to intniate a practice toward the realization of the fruit of Vajrasattva Buddha's Eternal Wisdom.
So essentially, I will begin talking about walking the path of Vajrasattva, which is a specific type of Bodhisattva path.
So for those who have followed my spiritual journeys for a number of years now, this is the direction I'm heading toward, I just am not sure what it will look like and how I will go about it. I know next to nothing about Vajrayana Buddhism (the 3rd of the Three main divisions of Buddhism), but nonetheless, this will be the direction I go until it no longer suits me.
I thank everyone who has followed my blog up to this point. I will make my new blog address and so on available as soon as I can, but I've reached the end of this livejournal blog as my primary place for public blogging.